My self esteem is way too low...

It hurts when I see friends I've been chatting a lot with appear with a green dot on the homepage, only to be offline again a minute later. I've opened SW plenty of times out of habit when looking for something else and I know that could very well be why they popped up, but I can't help but think they logged in purposefully, saw I was online too and logged out to avoid me.

That feeling is even stronger when they read my message and leave without replying, while I also sometimes want to give a reply more thought. I just can't convince myself that to be the case when someone does it to me and instead immediately feel like they are no longer interested. Even if they do get back to me later 90% of the time, that doesn't stop me from jumping to that conclusion...

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Punches · 46-50, F

On the technical side of SW - take the green dot with a grain of salt. Some are nearly always logged in but may not be HERE here.
Or if the green dot vanishes right away, that likely has something to do with the refresh.
I talk to one person here who is here a lot but her green dot comes and goes erratically.

But yeah in any case there is that voice in our minds always trying to convince us that we are unwanted. It is easy to rationalize. How come Pat said hi to her but no me? How come someone didn't say "Good morning"? And then we start thinking we are the biggest reject on the planet and not even bill collectors would want to interact with us.

Sometimes it gets so bad that we feel like even Tom from MySpace would block us but that is almost never the case.

The only time people really say about others "Oh Gyod, another pest who wants to talk" is when people are at work and the phone rings. 😄

Oh let me tell you something funny that happened at work the other day - so some customer comes in to get God knows what and he asks me, "Do you know how..." and I cut him off right away and said, "I do not".
I wonder what he was gonna ask. 🤔

Not sure where this was going.

NerdyPotato ·

@Punches your rambles are perfect! 😁 You made some pretty good points at the start and though I don't know where that last part was going either, it was a funny addition. 🤣