I Am Still Working On My Self Esteem

Why do I need accolades?

I just got back from an amazing day at work, where I felt truly effective, competent, and confident (and let me tell you, fresh out of school and into the career world... that feeling doesn't come around as often as I'd like). But anyways, I felt elated.
It just bothered me that I felt a strong urge to call someone, anyone, to let them know what an amazing day I had.

Is that normal?
Is that okay?

It made me stop and try to figure out why it was so important for me to gain the validation of others. Why did I crave the pat-on-the-back, "good job", so much? I could attempt to deny it and knowingly lie to myself, try to say that I had other motivations, but I know that wouldn't get me anywhere.

So, I'm just going to be upfront about it. I enjoy an applause. Is that so bad?

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neoalphamtx · 46-50, M

OMG I am this way often, especially when I conquer something or solve a considerable problem. Unfortunately don't have much of an outlet so no I don't think anything is wrong with this. We are made to connect, to share. And no, it isn't wrong to want an applause. It doesn't mean you'll go psycho if you don't get it or go in the corner and feel useless - because you did accomplish something great. Nothing can take that away but it's more fun to have someone else celebrate with you!

wtfgirl001 · 31-35, F

@neoalphamtx That's true. Thank you for putting it this way. I agree, I think it's more about celebrating with someone else, as opposed to "needing" the recognition.

neoalphamtx · 46-50, M

@wtfgirl001 Yes, it is difficult when you don't have this in your relationships because it just doesn't mean as much if you can't share. Make sure you get this, even if it is with a coworker, it feeds your confidence and self-worth