I Will Be Myself And Not What Others Want Me To Be

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@SW-User probably no one. BUT I could not go on lying. When I joined ep a long time ago I was very truthful and thought everyone else was. Then I discovered they were not and I got badly hurt. I have been away along time and was afraid of it happening again so I hid in my lies but my conscience got the better of me. The internet can be a dangerous place but I have chosen to be honest but careful and reveal nothing personal ever again.

@mandy You have to find a balance here. You can be truthful. You have to watch who you trust. If you went through this before, you know what to do. Takes time to trust. You can choose to take the time or not. I cannot understand people who are not truthful. Lies catch up with you. And liars here cannot deceive forever. If you tell the truth, you never have to worry about lies. Seems easier to me. You get here what you put in.

@PoetryNEmotion thank you. That is why I apologized and came clean right away. I jave never been a liar and I don't need to lie to protect myself. I have other tools as you mentioned. Thanks for taking the time to respond.

@mandy You didn't answer why you lied. I am curious. You are welcome. Just be you. You don't have to expose your whole self. You choose how much.

@PoetryNEmotion I guess I wanted to be someone I wasn't. I got hurt very badly after a three year affair by the only man I was ever able to fall in love with. Mentally I have never been well. He ended our relationship and cut me out of his life with no closure or even a goodbye. He was there and then gone. I have come to think of him as dead rather than the reality of his abandonment. It makes it easier. I know I am not a widow yet feel like the widow of a man who died suddenly without warning.

@mandy Well, that is honest and I thank you for this. That wasn't so bad now, saying this. Thank you.