how can i be strong enough to survive my lonely existence

i feel very lonely at times, mostly at night time...just very 'alone' in the world...my only support system are my mother and father who live far away...meanwhile i live with a personality disorder...which affects my moods and emotions.

i had a wonderful childhood but i've had a very difficult adult life....ive never had a relationship because of my mental health problems....so missed out on a lot.