I Struggle But Im Trying To Stay Strong

It's been a roller-coaster of a year mostly down hill I suffer suvear depression and anxiety :( just over a year ago I quit smoking that was my mental block my distraction my excuse to get out of things I'm uncomfortable with so after that I felt lost trying to fined my new distraction not long after that I made a massive step in life coming out publicly as a female then the constant worry of how others feel about me and who I am I then fined a person hanging as a result suffering with post traumatic stress sleepless nights flash backs no help then a friend dies s unexpectedly I also have learning disabilities and getting screened for autism wich Im really scard about and to finish off I'm really loanly I never really see anyone so to much time to think :( im still here I don't know how or why but really really struggling to cope :'(