yayayay i love not being clean

i dont cut myself or anything "classic", but i do slap elastics and rulers on my arms enough to cause burns and open wounds. sometimes i burn myself with the glue gun. but either way, it feels so good to finally be able to do it because yk what? i dont have to tell anyone i know. i dont have to be like "bestie, i relapsed". i can just do it in my own peace