My self harm.

TW covering topics of self harm.
I self harm. I have before, and i did stop for a while. Until recently. I felt the urge to one night and my knife was too dull and i saw a lighter.. i burned myself. And i really liked it. And now i cant stop and im scared of falling into this deep deep hole i fought so hard to dig myself out of. I feel like i need to burn every second of every day and its so scary