Self harm thoughts
They always creep up on me as I lay in bed at night.
I broke my one year sobriety today. I had a glass of vodka because I was extremely angry that my therapist keeps canceling on me. It feels like whenever I try to help my mental state it never works out.
I don’t intend on drinking anymore but it feels like all my bad habits are coming back.
My anorexia came back. I’m now less then ten pounds away from being underweight.
I broke my year long sobriety today.
I’m failing to keep my temper in check.
I’ve come very close to self harming again but haven’t.
I will never abuse drugs again, that’s the only thing I can say that will never come back.
Regardless I can’t help but feel like despite all my wisdom and intelligence; I’ve stopped growing as a person. It feels like I’ve peaked at my self growth. Like this is the best version of who I am and that’s sad. Because I’m not a good person and I only stay alive for my families sake.
I broke my one year sobriety today. I had a glass of vodka because I was extremely angry that my therapist keeps canceling on me. It feels like whenever I try to help my mental state it never works out.
I don’t intend on drinking anymore but it feels like all my bad habits are coming back.
My anorexia came back. I’m now less then ten pounds away from being underweight.
I broke my year long sobriety today.
I’m failing to keep my temper in check.
I’ve come very close to self harming again but haven’t.
I will never abuse drugs again, that’s the only thing I can say that will never come back.
Regardless I can’t help but feel like despite all my wisdom and intelligence; I’ve stopped growing as a person. It feels like I’ve peaked at my self growth. Like this is the best version of who I am and that’s sad. Because I’m not a good person and I only stay alive for my families sake.
