I Used to Self Harm
It will be 5 years in two days since I last tried to take my own life. Never thought I would have made it to my current age back during that time, I was determined not too.
Also 5 years since I stopped cutting myself and since I got a hold of my anorexia ..
Honestly never thought I would be strong enough to stop all of that stuff and truth be told it has been incredibly hard not to go back to it. I have thoughts of it all the time and some days are much harder to ignore.
I used to get told by certain people that I would only do that stuff for attention and sympathy yet I tried hiding it all from everyone.
I put my family through so much stress and despite it all they never turned their backs from me and were always so supportive. I am incredibly blessed to have a family that is like that..
When I first decided to write this post I was going to go into more detail with what I used to do to myself and so on but now have decided I am not going to do that as it would take so long to write and well that isn't really the point of this thread..
If I can get past all that stuff, well I think anyone is strong enough to do so. I am not a strong person by all means so yeah.
If anyone is going through things like this I hope you seek out help and don't struggle with it yourself, that just makes it all so much harder..
Anyway I am just happy that I am where I am now compared to the state I was in 5 years ago.. So much can change in such a short amount of time..
Also 5 years since I stopped cutting myself and since I got a hold of my anorexia ..
Honestly never thought I would be strong enough to stop all of that stuff and truth be told it has been incredibly hard not to go back to it. I have thoughts of it all the time and some days are much harder to ignore.
I used to get told by certain people that I would only do that stuff for attention and sympathy yet I tried hiding it all from everyone.
I put my family through so much stress and despite it all they never turned their backs from me and were always so supportive. I am incredibly blessed to have a family that is like that..
When I first decided to write this post I was going to go into more detail with what I used to do to myself and so on but now have decided I am not going to do that as it would take so long to write and well that isn't really the point of this thread..
If I can get past all that stuff, well I think anyone is strong enough to do so. I am not a strong person by all means so yeah.
If anyone is going through things like this I hope you seek out help and don't struggle with it yourself, that just makes it all so much harder..
Anyway I am just happy that I am where I am now compared to the state I was in 5 years ago.. So much can change in such a short amount of time..
31-35, F
