I Used to Self Harm
28/08/2018
I can remember the feeling that enveloped me that led to my self-harm, and it still hangs around sometimes but now I am better at controlling the urge because I know now that it won't change anything. I won't lie- it felt good and sometimes I do miss it but I owe it to my body to appreciate it and look after it.
Sometimes I just want to have an external injury so my inner pain will have a purpose or a reason for someone to just notice. I think that's why people self-harm because they feel like they can't be this sad and hurt without and external reason.
I was very smart with how I self-harmed. Never too deep. Never enough to leave a scar and never in the way someone who saw it wouldn't believe me when I said it was our cat who got a bit excited...
I never got "caught" I had to come forward for my own good and tell my family and they were surprised because I was so happy and always looking after friends and always up for fun things.
I can't be angry because as I said I hid it well.
"Tell me Where it hurts" By Garbage
I can remember the feeling that enveloped me that led to my self-harm, and it still hangs around sometimes but now I am better at controlling the urge because I know now that it won't change anything. I won't lie- it felt good and sometimes I do miss it but I owe it to my body to appreciate it and look after it.
Sometimes I just want to have an external injury so my inner pain will have a purpose or a reason for someone to just notice. I think that's why people self-harm because they feel like they can't be this sad and hurt without and external reason.
I was very smart with how I self-harmed. Never too deep. Never enough to leave a scar and never in the way someone who saw it wouldn't believe me when I said it was our cat who got a bit excited...
I never got "caught" I had to come forward for my own good and tell my family and they were surprised because I was so happy and always looking after friends and always up for fun things.
I can't be angry because as I said I hid it well.
"Tell me Where it hurts" By Garbage
