I Am Battling Self Harm
Trigger warning*
Ahhhhh. I need to. I really f**king need to. The urge is so strong. I tried to use a rubber band but it wasn't enough. I need to feel that release. That gasp after having held my head under water for so long. It all hurts so much. My emotions are out of whack. I normally don't care but there's someone I don't want seeing my scars. I only have a few fresh ones and a hundred old silvery lines hidden. But I want to be intimate with this person. I just don't want them to see/feel this part of me. It's too soon. I don't want them to know it still happens and always will.
Ahhhhh. I need to. I really f**king need to. The urge is so strong. I tried to use a rubber band but it wasn't enough. I need to feel that release. That gasp after having held my head under water for so long. It all hurts so much. My emotions are out of whack. I normally don't care but there's someone I don't want seeing my scars. I only have a few fresh ones and a hundred old silvery lines hidden. But I want to be intimate with this person. I just don't want them to see/feel this part of me. It's too soon. I don't want them to know it still happens and always will.
31-35, F
