I Am Battling Self Harm

I was 13 the first time I self harmed. Ever since then I've struggled with it. I wouldn't say that I actively do it. However, I often think about doing it again and every so often I give in. Today was one of those days. It had been months since the last time I did it. I wish I could take it back. I was just extremely anxious today and couldn't calm down and it just seemed like one of those days where nothing was going right. I wish I hadn't given in.