I Am Battling Self Harm

I used to self-harm, with food. My acid reflux is so bad that I can't be a glutton anymore. I used to eat my pain & hurt away with a lot of junk food. I nearly died, eating 5 praline candies in 1 sitting. My body suffered for months because of it. I was debating on whether or not to live or die, suffering from spiritual abuse & narcissism. A time after that, I ate 6 donut sticks, trying to cope with my cousin Blake getting shot & killed.