I Am Battling Self Harm

@caccoon I am safe as I can be and scared I dont know why

@SW-User I'm sorry you're feeling this way. :(

What are you afraid of?

@caccoon of being rejected told everything that happened I couldve stopped I failed

@SW-User Who do you think will reject you?

And what are the things that you could have stopped?

@caccoon anyone i talk to I couldve stopped my twin from killing himself if I was faster home I couldve stopped him rather than finding him like that if I tried to get him to talk to him I couldve helped

@SW-User Oh gosh... I'm so sorry. Have you spoken to a therapist about this at all? That is extremely traumatic.

I know it must be so hard, but you're not responsible for his death in any way. I don't know what it's like to be a twin, because I am not one, but maybe you had an especially strong bond with him. Though, I assume it would be hard to see family like that in any case... It must hurt, and I can't imagine the pain. But I promise, it's not your fault.

Are you close to your parents at all?

@caccoon Ive tried but I closed myself off It broke me I didnt speak or eat much for about a year it was like I died too still feels like im only half I was we were so close but I never knew he was going through hell I just feel I couldve done something im close to all my family but not at the same time its like facade I put up for everyone else and my true self

@SW-User I'm so sorry that you lost him. :( I know it must be hard, but I think you do need to reach out to someone in person who can help you. Having someone there to talk to and hug you can make a world of difference... even if it's hard to do.

@caccoon I want I really do I try ill keep trying

@SW-User 🤗 Sorry, not to push you. I just think you need that. I wish you luck, it's worth fighting for yourself. <3

@caccoon Ill keep trying thank you for your kindness I just need to let it out sometimes where Im not known

@SW-User I completely understand that! It can really help to reach out and have total strangers show you they care. It's good you took that step for yourself, because you knew you needed it. :)

@caccoon thank you for being a caring stranger ❤

@SW-User 🤗 You are welcome. Thank you for being sweet and appreciative. <3 I truly do hope things getting better for you.

@caccoon hugs