I Need Advice

I need advice. What i want to talk about is sexually inclined and this is something i need your advice on. First of all, i want to admit to myself that i am bot perfect. I am not all good in totality of my personality. I am trying to be as normal as i can, but, there are somethings that disturb me. And i want my these wrong thoughts to just go. I honestly don't know why i'm still alive. My problem is, i have never had any form of intimacy with a girl for a long time. I've never been in a relationship. And it kind of just bothers me in a strange way. I know that i might not even need a relationship now, but, there are moments in my life that, put me in a state or mood, were i feel so bad. I don't know how to balance my ability to be happy. I don't have people i can easily want to call, because, if i was to call someone, it would have to be a girl. And the girls i like, don't see me that way. So, i really, really don't know what to do, to just live normally, without having any need to worry about a girl. I'm the type of person that likes doing things, or i usually am busy doing something, or thinking about something. But i'm not able to always keep myself busy at every point in time. The most annoying part is when i get tired after a day of doing things, i come back and feel the need to be with a girl or communicate with a girl. I actually long to know what it feels like to be kissed by a girl or to be with a girl, and it is annoying because, it makes me feel bad. I don't chase girls, because, i don't think i can even have the time to do that. I can't even thin k of such a thing. So, how can someone like me survive in this situation? I need something that can help me. I really don't know what to do. How can i stay happy and balanced, since i don't have girls i can communicate with daily, i don't call any,because i don't have a steady on' phone.