This is the real me

So, I already have an account on here which is my darker side, but funnily enough I am more scared and anxious about sharing the rest of who I am with anybody. I've just started a Masters in Counselling and as good as I am at helping others (I'm pretty good if I do say so myself 😉) I'm awful at helping myself. To work on this I decided to create a new account on here which is just me, no worrying about pleasing others, no hiding the parts of myself like i do irl just to fit in, no hiding from myself. This account will be where I can express things that are really happening or have happened in my life. things i have let myself ignore because admitting them means big changes which have negative affects in people in my life, pointing out to myself the red flags i pretend not to see so i have no excuse not to work on dealing with them. No idea if this will work but tbf this will be the most honest I have been with myself, in, well, ever and I have no idea how I will react writing it all down but what's the worst that can happen 😅

DancingStarGoddess ·

I made an alt when i thought i wanted more peace on here and it's funny.. i almost never log on to it. lol.

Being honest with ourselves is the hardest.. then with others and i hope that in getting closer to the "real" you find more clarity, peace and happiness. Sometimes it takes breaking ourselves into facets and looking at the pieces individually to REALLY appreciate and get a grasp on what and who the whole was, is and wants to be going forth. Good luck!🙌🏾 We're all just kaleidoscopes with feelings honestly.

Iknowyourouttheresomewhere · M

This is incredibly brave and honest of you to share. It sounds like you’ve spent a long time putting other people’s needs first and hiding parts of yourself to fit in, so choosing to be truthful with yourself is a really meaningful step. You don’t have to have everything figured out, and you don’t have to face it all at once. I hope this account becomes a safe space for you to explore what you’re feeling, at your own pace. Please be gentle with yourself while you do it, you deserve the same compassion and understanding that you give to everyone else. 😊

JovialMoose · 51-55, M

I hope it works out for you.

Beautiful "rot" might work out really well. I hope it's a self fulfilling prophecy. It reminds me of a cool looking set of fungi you walk upon in a forest.