What takes you down on the road to apathy?

Do you feel like staying there forever? Or as long as possible?
How do you feel apathy?
For me, it feels heavy on the eyes and on the back of the neck and head... I hardly breathe... It's mostly shallow... Or holding of breath.. Feels like I'm in a grey cloud...nothing colourful... All dull.. Life holds ho meaning..and there is no sense of time.

How about you?