is this understandable for me

i'm now 45 years of age, and i had mental problems to deal with my entire adult life and because of it i have never found a relationship and never established a new friendship...i live alone, my elderly parents live far from me....and now i find myself getting a little 'desperate' 'frustrated' for interaction with women...i don't want to feel that way....but how do i not?

i'm waiting for a support worker to help get me out more in the community, so that might be a chance to meet women...i have a good social worker now and i'm close to my parents.......so what can i do?

the fact that i feel frustrated and desperate now? in general, i feel avoided by women so that adds to the frustration and desperation.

i'm genuinely not a creep, i'm a good man dealing with difficult problems...what would you do if you were me?

i get lonely too at times.

rrraksamam · 31-35, M Best Comment

I try not to think about it too much.
It gets too depressing to the point where my life comes to a standstill. I'd rather not be stuck in a dark hole that holds nothing but pain and misery.
just pretend you're doing fine and everything is okay.
Works for me.

Nevaeh0081 · 36-40, F

Just let it flow.

I always say if if if.

But it's kind of better to just throw out your line and see what you catch.

Gotta know what you're working with.

#itiswhatitis