I had the first panic attack for the first time in two months today.

At a family event, everyone was talking to me, asking me about school, friends, music. But their voices were so loud and I felt like I wanted to get out of there really fast, but I couldn't.

At first, I felt fear. Just a subtle, annoying buzzing in the back of my brain. Suddenly I couldn't focus on anything else. Why was I so afraid? Why was this happening to me? Then, the fear turned into a red-hot feeling, it burned, and it spread down my neck, around my neck, deep into my chest, just holding and squeezing me. It was hard to breathe. I was more afraid than I was a few moments ago. I couldn't catch my breath. I started to sweat. My vision got blurry.

I feel tired.