I don't know what to do anymore

All of my friends and classmate is busy in school (college) right now and here I am looking for a job since I wasn't able to go to college I'm supposed to be in a different city where my parents are cause I live with my grandparents together with my aunt who was supporting me in my studies and my mom wants me to go back to her and just continue my studies there but when I was there things seems difficult I wanted to study there but my needs is insufficient so I just go back to my grandparents and now i feel embarrassed since almost all of my classmates and friends knew that I was in a different city to study but then this happen my aunt got me a job and almost all students in different school go there since it's the center of the city what if I met them while I'm on a job what should I do:<<(sorry for my bad English)