Grades, school etc.

Its been a month since ive been in my new school. Im failing everything.

I failed all my math tests and i failed science. My moms disapointed in me and i feel guilty. I learned. I swear..

I tried. But i kept on failing. Ever since 7th grade, everythings been getting harder and im just simply trying to endure it and survive it. I feel like such a disapointment. Im usless. Im dumb. I dont even know who i am anymore.

I hate school, i hate home, i hate everything.

The only thing that keeps me going throughout the day is my bird. He is the light to my world and seeing him everyday brightens up my gloomy mornings before going to school.

When i go to school, i feel like going home.
And when i am home, i dont wanna be there.
Being at school feels draining.
But being at home also feels like shit.
I dont know where i belong. Or where i can be happy and at peace.