Just not right
I don't know why but i don't think i should keep being friends with them.. they're great company and all but it's just not right at all.
I know very well that i am being badly influenced and it's starting to worry me, and at the same time i just can't cut connections they're my friends and my classmates at the same time! Actually my only friends!! At these past few weeks i haven't been going to school lately while i instead hang out with them, it's starting to drain me... whenever i have no choice but to be absent for school they come to my house and be absent as well, and at times where i do go to school they convince me not to and hang out in my house with me instead! It's annoying me but i can't just decline. Afterlall they're my only motivation to going to school and study but at the same time they pull me back from improving! My state has been becoming worse, at school and my mental health! I appreciate how they're always with me and make me happy but they're being complicated for my studies! My grades had become worse and i barely learn anything in school from HOW MUCH THEY TALK TO ME. They distract me so much...
It just scares me to be held back and go through this year all over again just because i am stupid. I don't want that.
At this point im starting to think im becoming their scapegoat, just because my house is just a walking distance to our school, i want people that motivate me to go to school not motivate me to stay at home! Im running out of excuses for my dad, the grades this quarter is disapointing, i want them out of my house!
I don't want to be rude, i don't want to be a killjoy, i don't want to be lonely, i don't want to be miserable.
I love and care about them but they're just too much! They're getting too used to me and taking advantage of my natural personality and that's just straight up selfish!
I know at this point i should stop being friends with them... but they keep my mentality stable, at the same time make me FAIL AT SCHOOL.
I know what i am supposed to do but i don't know where to start! If both of them are gone i just feel so lonely. And both of them are at school with me i just feel so stupid.
It is either grades or mental health! I can't choose!!
This just makes my situation even worse and it's hurting my head. I want to cry and i want to shout at them.
I hate them so much but i just can't.
I know very well that i am being badly influenced and it's starting to worry me, and at the same time i just can't cut connections they're my friends and my classmates at the same time! Actually my only friends!! At these past few weeks i haven't been going to school lately while i instead hang out with them, it's starting to drain me... whenever i have no choice but to be absent for school they come to my house and be absent as well, and at times where i do go to school they convince me not to and hang out in my house with me instead! It's annoying me but i can't just decline. Afterlall they're my only motivation to going to school and study but at the same time they pull me back from improving! My state has been becoming worse, at school and my mental health! I appreciate how they're always with me and make me happy but they're being complicated for my studies! My grades had become worse and i barely learn anything in school from HOW MUCH THEY TALK TO ME. They distract me so much...
It just scares me to be held back and go through this year all over again just because i am stupid. I don't want that.
At this point im starting to think im becoming their scapegoat, just because my house is just a walking distance to our school, i want people that motivate me to go to school not motivate me to stay at home! Im running out of excuses for my dad, the grades this quarter is disapointing, i want them out of my house!
I don't want to be rude, i don't want to be a killjoy, i don't want to be lonely, i don't want to be miserable.
I love and care about them but they're just too much! They're getting too used to me and taking advantage of my natural personality and that's just straight up selfish!
I know at this point i should stop being friends with them... but they keep my mentality stable, at the same time make me FAIL AT SCHOOL.
I know what i am supposed to do but i don't know where to start! If both of them are gone i just feel so lonely. And both of them are at school with me i just feel so stupid.
It is either grades or mental health! I can't choose!!
This just makes my situation even worse and it's hurting my head. I want to cry and i want to shout at them.
I hate them so much but i just can't.
