I am not who I used to be

I am not who I used to be
the person I was before your touch,
before your laughter settled in my soul,
before your absence learned my name.

My heart feels heavy,
missing beats between thoughts of you.
So don't come looking for me;
I'm no longer waiting
where you left me.

I don't know what tomorrow holds.
I don't know if these restless nights
will ever soften into peace,
or if my heart will again discover
the warmth it once knew
in the quiet of your embrace.