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Since seeing a post asking for opinions on sex, I've been thinking about my relationship to it. I've never had sex, unless you count words and pictures shared intimately online, which I don't think should count? Anyway, at this point I'm not really sure if I'll ever end up having sex at all, or if I truly even want that. The most 'hormonal' time of life has passed for me now and my urges feel a little bit wound down nowadays, so the desire to seek someone out for such things isn't as strong as it used to be, and no woman in real life has ever expressed interest in me as anything more than a friend, so I'm in the process of giving up. Coming to terms with it has been difficult as my brain still has sexual urges so rebels against it, but I'm slowly becoming happier with my place in the world. I still have Warhammer to focus on, at least.

I'm not saying all this in order to make people feel sorry for me. I'm stuck in a place where giving up seems the only option and like there's no other way through. But I've gotten this far in life without it, and it's not a decision I get to make if women are into me like that anyway.