Is love a feeling? If so, why can't I feel it?
I fell in love at 13 years old. It was my first love, puppy love, whatever you want to call it.
It ended bad, my mom picked me up from school one day and sent me to another state to live with my dad. I never saw my first love again
It's been 11 years. Ive been in 3 relationships
1 for 3 years
Anotjer for 2 years
And another for 1.5 years
I see them do something cute or i like to see them smile and convince myself this mean i like them. Then when it's been long enough, I just switch the word like to love. Even though I feel nothing other then content or happy during out and about moments.
Yes, I've had therapy. My parents only made me do a few sessions as a kid then when I was 23 I tried again on my own. They recommended CBT therapy, but my therapist rescheduled me 5x before I gave up.
So I guess am i just broken ? Is love supposed to feel like something ? Any advice?
Idk if my childhood matters, but I was abused physically and verbally as well as neglected until i was 13. Then it became just verbal. Both my parents were functioning alcholics. Havent seen my mom in years but my stepmom saved me honestly. Wanted to kms when i was a freshman in hs.
Dad has anger issues and i moved out as soon as i turned 19. Moved states. Tried relationships etc.
It ended bad, my mom picked me up from school one day and sent me to another state to live with my dad. I never saw my first love again
It's been 11 years. Ive been in 3 relationships
1 for 3 years
Anotjer for 2 years
And another for 1.5 years
I see them do something cute or i like to see them smile and convince myself this mean i like them. Then when it's been long enough, I just switch the word like to love. Even though I feel nothing other then content or happy during out and about moments.
Yes, I've had therapy. My parents only made me do a few sessions as a kid then when I was 23 I tried again on my own. They recommended CBT therapy, but my therapist rescheduled me 5x before I gave up.
So I guess am i just broken ? Is love supposed to feel like something ? Any advice?
Idk if my childhood matters, but I was abused physically and verbally as well as neglected until i was 13. Then it became just verbal. Both my parents were functioning alcholics. Havent seen my mom in years but my stepmom saved me honestly. Wanted to kms when i was a freshman in hs.
Dad has anger issues and i moved out as soon as i turned 19. Moved states. Tried relationships etc.
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