First time I revealed liking a girl to someone, I got hurt badly

They went and told their friend, another girl within an hour or two. I had asked him not to. That doesn't bother me but at lunch time, I was 12 at the time. I was walking near the classroom and heard my name and stopped just behind a corner. I heard my name out of a girl i never talked too, their mouth. She was telling the girl I liked that I had a crush on her. I remember her words at the time, the girl i thought was pretty who I hadn't even talked to before said "Ew, he's ugly" and I just felt such pain in that moment as the next few seconds stretched out into an eternity. I cried but I didn't sob. The tears just left my eyes, then I wiped them off. I walked past that corner and through those girls gossiping. I don't know why I felt the need to do that, but I did. When the girl I liked said "Hi" to me, I just turned around with what was probably, pain in my eyes, answered like "Yeah" and "Okay" then left that place immediately.

I carried those words with me for a decade and a half, wondering what was wrong with me when it had nothing to do with me. I know I wasn't ugly or creepy but some girls just had that visceral reaction to me. And that was on them. Now... After thinking and digesting that fact the last 2 weeks. I don't know how I feel.