I Lost My Religion
i stopped going to church since 7 months ago. today i found that i was removed from the whatsapp grp of a cell grp i once joined there.
i removed myself from 3 other church related grps.
i wanted to leave those whatsapp grps since i left the church but was just too embarrassed to do so and lest i would affect other people s faith. now by being removed and removing myself, i should close this "trying to seek direction for life from religions" chapter and start a new life with a clear mind.
you dont need to be a believer of a religion to be a good, ethical and wise person.
there has been some discomfort meeting ex acquaintances from church, both from me and from them, i can see. people perhaps see me as a traitor. but after some time, i act pretty much like back to normal; they may perhaps still feel embarrassed. it always seems to me that, the so called love from christianity stops outside church, and especially excluding quitters.
i cannot care. i remind myself to have the courage to be disgusted. no one could be liked by everyone. and i dont believe there is a place where everyone likes everyone equally; i used to believe that naively but of course now i dont, it will never work, the world never works like that, in any grps in the world.
it s my life and it s great to control and accept myself. it s great to spend my free time the way i find meaningful, rather than confronting with people who demand and request too much from you because they have the authority, whose orders and decision i cannot agree with. i dont feel blessed working for other bosses after work. there are always people who think if they have good intention then everything they do is right. it s sick.
blessed was i being enlightened and took the courage to quit and decide for my own life.
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to my ex-aquaintances from church: just as i respect your religion, please respect my choice to quit and what (not) to believe.
i removed myself from 3 other church related grps.
i wanted to leave those whatsapp grps since i left the church but was just too embarrassed to do so and lest i would affect other people s faith. now by being removed and removing myself, i should close this "trying to seek direction for life from religions" chapter and start a new life with a clear mind.
you dont need to be a believer of a religion to be a good, ethical and wise person.
there has been some discomfort meeting ex acquaintances from church, both from me and from them, i can see. people perhaps see me as a traitor. but after some time, i act pretty much like back to normal; they may perhaps still feel embarrassed. it always seems to me that, the so called love from christianity stops outside church, and especially excluding quitters.
i cannot care. i remind myself to have the courage to be disgusted. no one could be liked by everyone. and i dont believe there is a place where everyone likes everyone equally; i used to believe that naively but of course now i dont, it will never work, the world never works like that, in any grps in the world.
it s my life and it s great to control and accept myself. it s great to spend my free time the way i find meaningful, rather than confronting with people who demand and request too much from you because they have the authority, whose orders and decision i cannot agree with. i dont feel blessed working for other bosses after work. there are always people who think if they have good intention then everything they do is right. it s sick.
blessed was i being enlightened and took the courage to quit and decide for my own life.
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to my ex-aquaintances from church: just as i respect your religion, please respect my choice to quit and what (not) to believe.
