Is anyone else religious but hates the idea of church

Yup! I'm not sure I'm religious. Spiritual, but not a spiritualist. I do not like organized religion and the guilt and shame used to manipulate and hurt people. I feel it's an open excuse to be judgemental and it reeks of my pooo don't stank kinda vibe. I'm guessing not all churches are like that, but I battle it. I see through the bs of people so it makes it hard to be around a lot of people