something's missing

I've been on the old experience project. I'm glad to be back. I wanted to start with what's been on my mind. I'm searching for a spiritual home. Not Christian for sure. (I've been hurt by churches too many times). I've been following the 4 noble truths and the 8 fold path of Buddism. I sit Zazen, but I'm looking for something more.

I have an indigenous background, but don't think I can practice it. I have blonde hair & blue eyes. It's sort of frowned upon. My dad was indigenous & my grandfather went to a residential school, so I identify as that.

I'm not sure what I'm looking for. A group? Friends? People to talk to?