Belifes and some thought

When I remember my life before losing my faith, it was soooooooo much more simple. I didn't have any existential crisis. I could relate to my family and everyone around me. I didn't have identity crisis. My perception of right and wrong matched what I have been taught, so I didn't struggle much. Losing faith is much easier when you have been raised in a secular society, it doesn't shake you as hard as it does, when you were brought up in a conservative society, with strong family connection, and when religion is still pretty much dominant and respected everywhere.

My life changed and it will never go back the same, until I die. Sometimes I wonder if it is worth it. I mean, yea there are many bad things in religion, but then, I was one of the good ones, who believed in it all, but would never act on it, or even knew of it much. I mean, whenever people said my religion was a violent one, I didn't even believe it, let alone act on it. So whether I believed or not, I did not make much of a difference in the world.. but believing or not, did make a huge difference in my life.. it brought me so much anxiety and huge identity struggles and fears.. it destroyed my relationships and it made my life soooo freaking complicated...

Sometimes I wish I'd go back just one day when life was simple and everything was figured out for me.

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BlueVeins · 22-25

If nothing else, leaving religion puts the world, collectively another step closer to a secular world where reason wins out. If everyone was as willing to put empirical evidence first as you are, we'd all live much happier lives, just sucks that the in-between is so painful.

BittersweetPotato · 31-35, F

@BlueVeins What is the point if we had to hide and live in complete fear and denial, because this what my life has been for the past 9 years... Change doesn't come about with hiding and pretending, this is why I said my change of my mind did not make much of a difference in the world, I may as well just continued my life as is and had this peace of mind.

EarthlingWise

@BittersweetPotato well, humankind makes progress by learning, by facing inconvenient truths, when you side with the bigoted it means you are able to throw stones at the bold ones, it means you condone atrocities. It's not just about being naive and harmless, religion brings along nasty things.

BittersweetPotato · 31-35, F

@EarthlingWise i know that religion brings nasty things.. I said (((I))) did not bring nasty things when i was religious. Therefore me being religious or not doesn't make much of a difference in the world

EarthlingWise

@BittersweetPotato I beg to differ. Your attitude makes a difference. One + one + One + One..........

BittersweetPotato · 31-35, F

@EarthlingWise I get what you are saying.. What I am saying, wahat is the point if this attitude is "hidden" and replaced with a lot of pretending.. also, my previous attitude wasn't exactly nasty.

BlueVeins · 22-25

@BittersweetPotato It's true that you being non-religious changes little individually, but once we have enough people rejecting religion, suddenly hiding it becomes a lot less necessary. And yeah, I'm sure you did minimal harm and behaved well, but religious moderatism ultimately does benefit religious fanaticism by supporting the tenants of the latter's belief. In a society of religious moderates, anyone arguing against fundamentalists have to walk a fine line of saying that the religious book is holy but that it's not meant to be taken literally or obeyed strictly to this day. In a society of nonreligious folks, anyone arguing against fundamentalists can just point out that the whole faith is fiction, at which point the burden of proof falls upon the fundamentalists to prove an absurd and indefensible point.