I'm not a religious person myself, but I respect those who are. I believe many church priests and pastors tend make themselves open to speak with.
They may have numbers you can call, email address you can message, or even just speak with them in person after mass or something. It could do you a lot of good to speak with them about why they have their faith, and maybe ways they've also struggled with theirs. If anybody could help you, I believe it could be them. If not from your specific church, then maybe from another