Agitated in agitation's grasp!

There are still too many things which cause me a great deal of disquiet. It is like catch-22. I am agitated and by my agitation I agitate and I am then agitated!

A calm walk in the darkness when all are asleep gives me a chance to refocus, rebuild myself, rekindle my sense of self worth and direction, value is important for a woman.

I am safely unsafe in the city asleep, but I have friends who comfort me quietly with their companionship. It isn't a normal existence but it is life in a form.