If you've been married 9 years, is this your second marriage or did you decide not to divorce your husband because of children/finances?
If I recall correctly, your husband fantasized about you being a hot wife, encouraged you to do it but got upset when you started seeing other men on your own and not at his bidding (in other words he was no longer in control). Is this the same husband or a second one?
Is it cheating if your husband wanted you to be a hot wife?
I have read articles that suggest people will cheat, but not want a divorce because that person fulfills a need, or provides some security. However they lose attraction, or passion, and seek it elsewhere. They then may do things with the affair partner that they would never consider doing with their spouse.