Do I though?

why is it so embarrassing to admit you might like someone? or want a relationship so badly one minute and then regret it in the next? like just thinking about the commitment is so scary i like knowing there’s an end point bc the idea that i would have to keep up with it forever is so daunting. but at the same time i wanna experience that devotion and love but at the same time i don’t?? what’s up with that emotions are so confusing