Do I though?

why is it so embarrassing to admit you might like someone? or want a relationship so badly one minute and then regret it in the next? like just thinking about the commitment is so scary i like knowing there’s an end point bc the idea that i would have to keep up with it forever is so daunting. but at the same time i wanna experience that devotion and love but at the same time i don’t?? what’s up with that emotions are so confusing

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MURD3RM0NK3Y · 26-30, M

I won't ever commit for the simple reason that I don't have patience for people. I barely have enough patience for myself let alone someone else who doesn't know what the hell they want from me I rather just have friends but nothing too serious at all

newdawnnewday · 22-25, F

@MURD3RM0NK3Y right? i get these moments of clarity sometimes like wtf am i even doing thinking of dragging someone into my mess like i barely know who i am and can love myself let alone devote myself to another person. i’m starting to think i want it for the wrong and selfish reasons like attention or feeling wanted which is never a good thing to start out any connection

MURD3RM0NK3Y · 26-30, M

@newdawnnewday I think it's supposed to go something like taking care of yourself first and then finding someone who has the same goals as you/or wants the same things out of life as you do. But I really don't have a clue honestly I just kinda figuring it out as I go

newdawnnewday · 22-25, F

@MURD3RM0NK3Y haha yeah that sounds about right. that’s kinda just life—figuring it out as we go and hoping we are making the right choices