Well then stop waiting

Your post touched me. I understand completely. I experienced some similar things, under different circumstances. My longtime wife passed away a few years ago. I never thought, at my age, I would ever find anyone to truly love again. I had some horrible dating experiences, but also started doing work on myself. It is not for anyone else to fix me., to rescue me. It is also not for anyone else to change me, nor is it for me to change them into what I want, who i am, or my "twin." I have learned acceptance of another and others as they are matters. We each have our own path, our own story, our own reasons for being the way we are. When one finds someone to grow with, play with, laugh with, touch and make love to, spend time doing nothing with, that is divine. And we do not have to agree on everything or want to fix each other. Fix ourselves then bring that improving person into a meaningful relationship. That is what I have found recently works.

The world today is dictated by money. So if you either have a source of income or wealthy with assets, you would have been in a dictating position. But looks like you are in the receiving end. So you are used for your availability. What you can do is become a Spiritual Lover and CareGiver for many by being their soul / spiritual mate, and offer love Unconditionally. Which means you just be their intimate friend to whom they can talk to anytime without any expectations. Be their NSA / FWB. Be their comfort friend who they can rely on. Don't choose one for the other. Love blindly without expectations. Be their soulmate. Be their soul nurse. Meet if they ask you to come over. Give them a bath and massage. Create a bonding.

Everyone has his life's challenges one has to play their best hand ..the route is full of pain n happiness day n night...one falls gets up then fights back .. everyone have their own battles to fight they may seem simpler but no it's best appreciated if you walk in the shoes .

Good attitude. Things will definitely get better. One day at a time. I know, I’m old.

Never lose that hope and positivity. It is so difficult to regain once it is gone. Good luck to you in your journey.

Keep thinking positive and good things will find you. Not right away but it will happen

Amen! There is always hope.

Never lose hope. We have no idea what tomorrow will bring. 🤗

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Sounds like you read romance novels.