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I want a divorce

I have decided I’m done. I just can’t anymore. After 12 years married and 15 years together and knowing each other for over 20 years. And I’ve already had one divorce in my early 20s. I’m just a failure. And I won’t even do this until my kids are adults because I know it will still hurt them as adults but I won’t take away the last few years of childhood from them so I have to suck it up and pretend to be happy. And don’t worry we don’t fight in front of them and when we do fight we are very silent so the kids think all is well and it will stay that way. We are just growing farther apart in all aspects lately and I don’t even want to be around him. Im really upset so I’m not really looking for advice or anything like that I’m just venting and here is a great place to do that. I’m just sooo done and honestly if he wants to be honest with himself I think he is too.
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This is what you said 2 weeks ago...
my husband is actually a great husband. He’s loving, sweet, and supportive..... He’s not abusive or gaslighting me or anything of that sort. All he ever is, is supportive.

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tiltawhirl · 36-40, F
@RoguishEyes and I still stand by that mate
tiltawhirl · 36-40, F
@RoguishEyes literally just told someone else in this comment thread that my husband is actually good to me
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JohnOlinger81 · 41-45, M
@tiltawhirl why want a divorce then if hes a good loving caring supporting husband ?
tiltawhirl · 36-40, F
@JohnOlinger81 because it lacks plenty
@tiltawhirl well then why are you wanting divorce him if he's so great? What's going on?
tiltawhirl · 36-40, F
@LadyGrace you’d have to read the whole article from that snippet. It’s not a secret.. all my posts are on my page and I’m not trying to hide anything. Yes, he is actually a good husband.
@tiltawhirl yes I'll have to read it. I didn't think you were hiding anything at all.
tiltawhirl · 36-40, F
@LadyGrace its just the way he put that on this post as to prove something?? I don’t know. I mean I still feel exactly that way about the situation. My husband is actually a good husband. And really maybe you are right that I’m just bored and kind of fell out of love I guess but really there is more to it. But I wasn’t going to leave this marriage until my kids are grown but I know it would still hurt them at any age. Really I should at least try therapy and salvage it before I just end it.
@tiltawhirl you don't even actually sound like you fell out of love with him. You better think this over very carefully. Divorce just tears the kids up something horrible. I went through that. And the kids never see you fight you said so please don't break their hearts this way. You have no idea how it affects them. In so many ways. It just ruins their lives. This marriage can be saved, I'm sure. Maybe the turmoil it is just within yourself. Maybe your hormones are out of balance, that could be possible cuz that happens to a lot of people at times, including myself. Oh if only you knew what this could all lead to, you would never do it. If he was abusive then I would say yes, I could see it but man, so many hearts will be torn up and lives destroyed. I really feel for you cuz I feel that something is going on inside of you and the marriage is not to blame. It will literally mess those kids up so bad and change their innocence, their whole world.
tiltawhirl · 36-40, F
@LadyGrace thank you for your responses. I really appreciate that you are kind about it but give me a different perspective that I need to hear. I will definitely consider these things.
@tiltawhirl yes I'm not trying to be mean about this at all. If only You knew It will literally mess those kids up so bad and change their innocence, their whole world. It will change who they are.

This is something going on inside yourself. I would bet my bottom dollar this has nothing to do with your husband. You have an unrest and unresolved things that need to be taken care of. You can do that and work on yourself without destroying a family. I know you don't mean to, but that's the way it will end. So many hearts will break and it will not only affect them now, but I promise you the rest of their lives.
tiltawhirl · 36-40, F
@LadyGrace I really think you are 💯 correct and that makes so much sense. It is something within me and not him. My parents divorced when I was an adult and I’m okay but I do remember feeling angry at my dad when my mom would call me crying but I am okay. They would also be adults. But you are right that this is definitely something that is within myself going on. That makes sooo much sense!!!
Harhhar · 36-40
@tiltawhirl Sounds like you may have never healed in quite a few ways. :(