I Am Married But Lonely

Today is my anniversary. We've been having some issues lately anyway, but I've been trying to get him to work it out. Anyway, I come downstairs, post a picture of us at our wedding and a nice sentiment on Facebook and go to say Happy Anniversary to him. He's all pissed off from work last night, and I get a sigh and grumbled, "Happy Anniversary". Wouldn't look at me, no smile, no kiss...nothing.

So, I come back here to my computer and just start crying. Then he sees me crying and sighs again, "What's wrong? You look angry." I didn't know how to respond. Isn't it obvious considering what JUST happened? I finally said, "Why does it seem like this is just another day to you?" Now he's walking past me grumbling, "It's not just another day."

Umm..really? I'm so frustrated and so drained. I'm just so done.

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TenderHeart · 46-50, F

I thank those of you who are just being supportive and empathetic. I'm not looking for advice. I am just venting on a day where I am feeling sad. I'm usually a very optimistic, smiling all the time, type of person. So, this is rare for me..

You all also don't know our history, what I've done to try to save the marriage or the communication that has already been put into it. Please do not assume I've been sitting idly by waiting and waiting for something to happen. That is not me, nor will it ever be. He knows how I feel about everything. I am always open and honest with him - even if it's not ideal or something he wants to hear. It's not reciprocated though, and that's been an issue. There are a lot of reasons and history behind it where I do not feel comfortable going into the depths of my marriage on a public forum LOL

But THANK YOU for the support. I really needed it right now! Love to all of you!