Married to a bastard [I Unhappy Marriage]

There are days I just don't know!
He can be so argumentative, difficult.
Trying to talk to him is worse.
We both worked hard to get a Mortgage free house.
I hate to leave and give it all up.
He spends out of boredom, between Covid And cold weather.
I'm just sick and tired of being stick around him.
Yes I've been looking for work .
And coping