I Want My First Marriage To Be My Only Marriage

Call me old school but marriage is very sacred to me and I’m very scared of getting a divorce because of it. I only wanna do this once but sometimes I feel like the man that I chose to be with is sabotaging us because he lied to me for 10 years about his past and who he is. When he came clean about it all he told me he wants me to know everything he says from that moment forward he wants me to know its the truth so I gave him another chance. Only months later I caught him smoking weed after telling me he hasn’t been. He snuck out to do it, hiding behind our vehicle and smoking right infront of our daughters things. I pretty much told him this is the last time. If he lies again I’m out. Its scary that my whole future is in his hands and its scary that I can’t trust him. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to. I just hope he takes us seriously.