I went to go see her, but maybe I shouldn't have

I became really overwhelmed with emotion when I saw her. I feel bad because she was really thrown off by it, but it just happened. Idk, I just really wanted to see her, because I still miss her. Even though I know it's not good for us to be together, I can't help how I feel. She said I can come back home if I want. I told her I'd think about it. Now I better go reapply my damn concealer since I cried most of it off.