Officially over 3 years relationship

After 3 years of hot and cold, give and take, breakup’s and make ups, we decided to finish thing for good.
We now realised that we are no good for each other.
I wonder how am I going to live with the fact that he is gone forever cuz the last time when he came back I thought he was the love of my life and I finally had him back.
What a beautiful illusion. I wish I could freeze beautiful moments so they would never fade.
This is going to hurt for a long time.