Anyone else like this?

I find that as long as I don't look down, I don't get height vertigo, even though the thought of falling is on my mind.

The problem is looking down is impulsive. I knew that being safe means focusing on where I land my feet but my gaze always wanders off to the bottom of the gulf. It is extremely annoying.

Same to being on top of a building. Always looking down like it makes any difference

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CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

It's pretty random for me and comes in waves. A while I'm okay and suddenly it hits or starts building up. But I haven't been in heights in a while. Last year in summer I went to the roof and had almost something like a panic attack building up but it came only after spending a while on it. I was in the middle, nowhere near the edge and suddenly it started building up. Very strange.

Miram · 31-35, F

@CrazyMusicLover that sounds really terrifying. I get similar episodes related to PTSD even without the triggers. Completely random emotional collapse

CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

@Miram I don't know if "panic attack" is the right term. I start feeling dizzy, unwell, restless and inner tremor. Yes, a bit like I'm going crazy but so far it was luckily always manageable with the right breathing and focusing mind. Inner tremor stays for a longer time, sometimes for hours. It was the first time I had it that bad from heights though. Before I just got dizzy, never hyperventilating and feeling like losing it.