Living with deep emotional & Romantic needs going unmet every day is hell

As strong and independent as I am, I always miss being in a relationship every day. I’d give anything to have back the relationship I once had. It didn’t last long at all and it hurts that my needs only got met for such a short amount of time. I’m done with holding on to false hope of getting what I want again one day. I’d rather hurt from that than delude myself with believing I’ll get it back one day when there’s little chance of it happening