Rant about my bf leaving me when I told him I was pregnant.

I just felt like writing what I couldn't say to him.

We don't know each other for a long time, I know. And we've only been dating for 6 months, yes, it's "nothing" like you said. We weren't expecting this, I wouldn't call it an "accident", but it happened, and we're adults, or so I thought. I'm 33, you are 38. We are supposed to be responsible enough, but here you are, leaving me pregnant and alone, with your damned excuse of " I told you I wasn't ready to have kids ", YES ! Neither was I, but contrary to you, I bear the consequences of what I've done.

It's been a month now, you completely disappeared from the surface of earth.
I didn't ask for much. I didn't ask you to marry me right away, or to give me money, or even to help me raise them. I just wanted you to be their father, not even "dad", father; because yes, there is a big difference between these two.

All the promises, all the love, all the dreams. I know they weren't a lie, but I also know now how ephemeral it was.
I thought that this kind of stories, only happened in books and movies, but...It seems not.

You know what ? I don't need you.
I'm gonna raise them on my own, I'm gonna kick asses as a single mom and they will grow up to be some badass human beings.
And I will love them unconditionally.
They won't even feel the need to have YOU as a father.
But I hope, not matter how much time flies by, that the memory of the children you left behind, YOUR children, from your own blood and skin, will haunt you forever.

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updown2020 · 61-69, M

Wow great letter now just send it to him but whatever you do get child support it not the matter of you not wanting his money it a matter of him living up to his responsibilities if he did not want to become a father well he should've made sure protection was used it was not so pay up. Find out where he works and have the courts garnish his wages, As many people have said here children cost money and you need all the money you can get,

Agathalylee · 41-45, F

@updown2020: I actually thought long about child support but...As I said, I'm financially good.
And his responsibilities, he's already not facing them.
When he left me, he said things that hurt me badly, but it was things that I knew, and understood.
He said he wasn't ready, and he probably will never be. He said that he didn't want children, that he never imagined himself to be a parent. He said that he didn't want to have anything to do with them or with me. BUT he actually told me I will get child support. I refused.
I know him.
I saw it in his eyes how badly he didn't want this. And who am I to force him ? One should naturally face his mistakes. If he doesn't want to then...I don't need this.
Sorry if this is confusing, I'm a huge mess right now.
But thank you for your comment.

updown2020 · 61-69, M

@Agathalylee: If you do not need his money that's great but again its not a matter of that it a matter of him living up to is responsibilities whether he want to or not and who are you to force him well you are the mother looking after your well the both of yours kids so you have every right to go after him. And if you really do not want the money well college is not cheap.