Did you ever feel truly loved by anybody.Romantically

@DancingStarGoddess: that is so sad

@MalteseFalconPunch: it's alright, it's just a thing i'm not able to feel, i'm assuming some day i will be able to feel it. i am not able to feel any kind of affection or love from people. romantic or otherwise.

@Unloved: it happens, i'm not particularly bent over it.

nor am I. I guess it doesn't exist for me

@MalteseFalconPunch: never learned proper "bonding" or any of that, untreated attachment and such. i can love. i just cant feel it back from others. i can only choose to believe or disbelieve them. but i "feel" nothing from them.

@MalteseFalconPunch: have been a sub since i was 12 actually, i am completely capable of feeling love, and deep love for people. as well as devotion, and am incapable of falling out of love as most seem to be able to do, but the occurance of me actually "loving" people is quite rare indeed. but i feel zero from them, i have to interpret everything they say and do for what it is or sounds like not how it makes me feel. i survive using mostly all logic

@MalteseFalconPunch: i am glad you can now feel it, in my situation(s0 i'm always just me in fact this one keeps saying "you're so .. YOU!" oneof the first thigns he said to me, i'm me all the time, i don't even knowhow to properly console people... just things i never learned and have to learn to do properly. overly emotional people make me uncomfortable, i find it disturbing, i think because i am unable to feel a true connection to them

@MalteseFalconPunch: not sure what's wrong to me, i'm sort of indifferent to most things or people? sounds quite cold, but i am compelled to help, but don't wish to be "connected" or obligated to be close to them beyond it. i don't even want them to like me. it's all very hard to explain. just seems to be what makes me "happy" to serve.

@MalteseFalconPunch: i'm glad someone gets it, most people think it sounds crazy lol for someone to want to serve men or to wish to be enslaved or to feel such a thing is their purpose etc. i don't know if i feel i have an overall life "purpose" but in a general sense of purpose, i did not feel like i had one, until i got my first collar. was an instant feeling.

@MalteseFalconPunch: no, i don't mean by any means that it's my only role, and i am already with someone who sees or treats me as such(both)... nvm. have a good day.

@MalteseFalconPunch: no, you didn't offend me at all, merely misunderstood me. it's cool, i'm quite used to it lol.

@MalteseFalconPunch: no, i'm meaning in terms of my servitude and me wishing to be nothing more than an object, as far as "others" i do not "serve" them in the same sense as Him. i help people and move on. what i am with Him is something aside from that entirely.

@MalteseFalconPunch: that is why i didn't understand at all you saying you wished i found someone who thought of or treated me as such or who could see me both ways etc...it is a thing i have. i am merely unable to FEEL what he feels for me. i'm only able to interpret what his actions may mean or his words.