I've been betrayed so much... hurt by the one I thought loved me... I just wish that I could find my soulmate for once... all I feel is pain... college is becoming a burden... and I'm losing motivation to keep moving forward.
You CAN move forward. That relationship did not define who you are. Be your own best friend and let NOTHING stop you. You'll be SO glad you did. If you were betrayed, then that's life showing you, you didn't need that person in your life. It was toxic. You'll meet someone better.
I was exactly your age while having worst breakup of my life, dont worry, it will be the perfect lesson for your future life, you will turn into stronger person emotionally and nothing is in the future but alot of happiness and success. I can guarantee you that.