What does it mean if you try to leave the same person but can never get away from them? I feel like sb did voodu on me.

I been trying to leave this person since 2013 I leave for a little bit they come get me. The longest I stayed away was 3 years after he cheated on me with a go worker. I was vulnerable and tired of being a live in care giver to a friend and he came and got me. Serperation over. Then he got me to go on a 6 month work trip where he controlled all the income. He became very toxic controlling mean and abusive. I found things in his phone with coworkers still I know I’m the dummie that keeps going back. So please don’t feel sorry for me. It’s just I’ve tried to go to family they lack resources and space for me I tried to just sleep in my car did thag it was ruff I tried working two jobs still couldn’t make enough to support myself and get a home of my own. Also even when I was a live In caregiver the daughter eventually wanted to take over for her mother and I let her. He keeps getting weirder and weirder when he’s not working he hovers over me alll night until I fall asleep just watching my every move asking who I’m talking to or who I’m texting and he has a disappointed jealous look on his face when I try to make new friends. I even tried to go to other guys but they can feel the energy or how bad I want to get away f and I come off as clingy and desperate and end up pushing guy friends away, like for a example I started doing art work so I can make extra money ended up meeting a very sucessful athlete and actor. As soon as I told one of my hg about him and about the new opportunity for my career everythunt fell apart. The event he invited me too was canceled. He got sad about that. His mood changed and now we’re not speaking. It’s not about him it’s like everytime I have a chance to breath and get away from my guy somethung stops it. Then yesterday he said he was going to a carnival and I told him I’ll wait at home I don’t want to go he cancelled everythunt just to sit in my face watching me all day. These holiday weekends are the worst cause he gets off every Friday but this weekend I’m with him from thurseday - Monday. Can’t talk to my friends can’t take cute selfies and promote my art he’s just always lurking in the shadows. It feels like a curse that only happens to girls with no family support no father figure no stability or income. No way of getting out just a trap. He picked me because he knew I could never leave him. I’ve tried so many time I’m talking homeless, in my car, shelters, Dv shelters, staying with friends until they got weird.