I tend to ruin things.....always. Would you stay in a relationship after something like this happens?

Very long, sorry in advance.😵‍💫

Perhaps it was not so much what you said to him but how? And also possibly how he took it. Sometimes a lot of the issue is that we simply go out of our way to be upset or offended about things that we really aren't all that invested in and we lose opportunities or even people because of how caught up in it we get. Both were hurt even though the intent of the other was obvious not to harm (You're dating, so it's reasonable to assume neither wishes harm) and yet both still assumed as much.

I think you should tell him exactly how you feel. Literally the entire last paragraph you wrote should be a mature discussion between the two of you. I mean... If you actually wanted it to work out it means you wanted some sort of future with him regardless of what that looks like but it means sharing your time, body, heart and life with this human.. if you can't also share and speak your mind and need to potentially spend the next 50+ years possibly walking on egg shells bc you're worried you might have an uncomfortable exchange, why bother?

Relationships are about a lot of things, but I'd say start with some very serious deep communication. If he's unwilling, you have your answer on what to do next. Good luck.🙏🏾🤷🏾‍♀️ I hope it works out.