Aquarius males? How are you coping ?

I am a Aquarius male (12 February). I think I am one of the weird, quircky, rebellious guys. I am terrible at social skills, I don't think I fit in the social places, that makes me very awkward. I want to be like a normal guy.. But it seems I cant. Too much overthinking, overworrying and overstress is killing me softly. I lost 10pounds in last 4 months, having terrible sleep at night. I feel like losing control over my life. I dont feel happy at anything at anywhere. I dont know my life purpose or dont have any plans for my future, I cant decide what I want and this is driving me crazy. Right now I have a job at holland abd live alone, no local friends. Any suggestions from fellow aquarius or anyone with experience in general?